sorrow and surprises

Not so good. We are coming in the end of our month. ha ha. today is the end of july. feeling not so right again. again again. There are a lot of sorrows and arrows received and you're actually wounded. oh that's suprising. Does it suprised us to actually seeing ourselves simply cannot move. Some victories and a lot of defeats and i don't think we can't actually talk about great victories when we were actually feeling bad at the moment. what i mean is literally bad. Having a blood transfusion from hell (speaking in parables, if you get it, well tha't nice, you're that keen abserver and you deserve some applause)

Great thing about defeats is that we keep on making ourself so low to the point of feeling undeserving of it all. Bad thing is we can't move. Good thing about being in the right Kingdom is that we can actually feel that we can take on the whole world and actually leading a revolution. What can we do? what can i do when i just felt so bad? The stand...

i hope we could always stand up to The Stand (by hillsong). This could be my last writing for this month and i do conclude that i actually fail to attain some goals, but i am not giving up. It only means to start anew and to double the goals for the upcoming months. Speaking of being tough and leaping in faith... this is living by faith and in Spirit. i don't want to write another defeat letter next month. i need a whole new revolution, a Suprise.

The stand

    You stood before creation
Forever within Your hand
You spoke all life into motion
My soul now is in His hand (?)

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin went upon Your shoulders
My soul now is in His hand (?)

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

I walk upon salvation
The Spirit of light in me
My soul to declare Your promise
My life in Your hands

So I�ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I�ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

Comments

[Anjo]

Feeling defeated is a good sign of nearing victory. You don't feel tired at the start of your quest, rather, it is when you've almost exhausted all effort in pursuing that quest.This thirst for victory and pain of defeat keeps us more dependent to God.

Christian life is a life of paradox. You have to die when you want to live, you have to suffer to enjoy the bliss of life and you have to spend all you have so that you'll gain all you want.

God is winning the battle for us. We do feel defeated when we start believing we're doing the battle for Him. When we believe that we are waging His battle, we only have to do our job - fighting a good fight. It is God's business to bring victory, it is Him who leads the battle anyway.

We also feel defeated when we're not seeing victory the way we want it. We ask why the battle wasn't grand as we expect it to be? Why there are no loud hoorahs?

Jonah was sent into Nineveh to win a battle. And just like us, frustrated in not seeing the victory he expect to see. The people of Nineveh didn't die in their unbelief, but turn to God and was forgiven. We've been like Jonah in a number of times in our lives. We forgot that once, we were one of those people from Nineveh.