traveling minds

its a new month, ohh taking a deep breath. june the jesus month, actually thinking a lot of who jesus is and what He has stand for. getting excited but in a sense afraid about what we are up into. Well, we fall and back and fall and back... its actually tiring thinking of how God could that be patient for me, as He always did. i little get that much pressure about doing something and really got into it <talking about speaking in parables this is it> i'm up for a new challenge and the only thing required is intimacy and brokeness. so obsessed thinking about what actually God can do more than what who God is. the call is there, is it? having some john the baptist disappointments (read the barbarian way by macmanus). the whole month that is, ohh really get stressed without the spirit. talking about missing the point "God is calling for the heart and the integrity that it takes". i don't know actually and full of the unknown <on the edge of breaking Down>. Leadership at its best and the awakening.